Every now and then I hit a little bump in the road where I start to doubt myself. Last week brought me one such bump (hence my last post where I needed to give myself a pep talk as my self- esteem seemed to be hanging by a thread). I can slowly feel myself coming out of it but it has not been easy, let me tell you. I would even go as far as to suggest that this is the greatest knock I have taken in the past year, so it scared the hell out of me. I have done ALOT of work on myself in the past year, and it has been hard work. So to then be faced with a feeling that it was all being undone and I was sliding back into my old dark days was rough. But, as I have been doing with everything in my life, I need to try and look closely at what the universe is trying to tell me by sending me such a difficult situation. So far my thoughts are:1. Relationships are HARD and each person in them has their own experience and perception of them at any given time (I already knew this one but its often one of the hardest ones to deal with). Keep working on them all the time.
2. Some days there is nothing you can do except fall in a heap, and it may be better to do this than fight it. Give yourself a break, cry if you need to and hopefully once you have let it out you will be able to keep moving.
3. I have AMAZING friends and particular family members who have held me up this week when I needed it (particularly my lulu family, my twin sis and my Mum).
I love that picture. That's exactly how I feel sometimes.
ReplyDeleteHave a cry, then have a bowl of concrete and harden up.